08/6/2011



Woops, Lost in Space… not just a t.v. show anymore

Well, after a very long period of time, I have decided to return to this blogging thingy.  I don’t make any promises to myself or anyone else, for that matter.  I will just say that from time to time I will attempt to return here to massage my own ego musings and attempt to create something of interest to another human type person.

After a time of intensity… what else is new… learning… blah, blah, blah… I have found myself ready to write again.  So, tonight I am noticing that the space between is a most profound place to visit and sometimes just hang out a while.  I have been in a space between… between what, I am not sure I can even quantify.  Somehow, it just seems that I am aware of coming out of that space. 

As this re-entry occurs, things in my everyday life will inevitably change.  Some of this will be welcome and some will be challenging.  But change will occur.  So, hello again… let’s see how this goes. 

My Teacher says there are 5 problems in the world that we all deal with… Relationship, Health, Family, Career, Finance…  

Let’s see… Work, Economy, Marriage, 55 year old body, Mother, Sister, Step-Daughters, In-Laws… yep… I think I’ve got ‘em covered!  These are the Joys and the Challenges of my life… and certainly what keeps it interesting! 

And if that isn’t enough, there is WienerGate, the Ride of Paul Revere and Civil Wars are on today’s entertainment menu…   What a great world we live in!

13/10/2009



“Behind the Veil”, Waterfall with Sun @ Tanyard Hollow, c/debparadise 2009

“Behind the Veil”, Waterfall with Sun @ Tanyard Hollow, c/debparadise 2009

9:24



AND IT RAINED AND IT RAINED AND IT….

Well, today is the very last day to go and pay off my little traffic infraction.  Of course, I had an extension and still have managed to wait until the very last minute.  I think that we often use up every last amount of whatever resource that we have.  Whether it is money or time or love, we seem to use every last bit…. “good to the last drop”… a motto that we all grew up with.

What do we gain by waiting til the last minute, spending our last farthing, grinding our hearts into dust?  Is this a product of an optimistic heart that really secretly believes that some kind of miracle is always possible?  Or is it the greedy heart that intends to get every bit if value out of something… to wring it dry… before letting go.

Perhaps it is a bit of both.  I truly believe in the strength of the Heart to endure hardship and setback and still be optimistic and hopeful.  I also believe that the MIND settles into fear and discouragement and has a very hard time trusting and letting go.  After all, isn’t this what the human/spiritual struggle is all about?

So “when it rains, it pours”… when the difficulties come, they seem to darken the horizon and blot out all of the sunshine.  These are the times when we humans reach down inside and discover faith, hope and trust.  And when the rain ends and the sunshine is blessing us with it’s light… how many of us are basking, and how many of us are just wondering when it will rain again?

09/10/2009



12:01



BACK FROM THE CENTER

After a week in the countryside of Tennessee, I have returned to my own personal version of civilization.  I am accompanied by all of the usual ghosts and issues that were activated during a week of exploring deeply within.  There is also satisfaction and accomplishment, memories of fun, new people and new found understanding.  The Joy and Illumination that were present the whole time seem far away and also right within my reach.  There are no words to describe what happens over the course of a week of retreat and inner seeking.

I return to my “normal” existance.  All of the joys and challenges, still sitting here waiting for me, kind of like nick nacks on a shelf.  My husband missed me.  (he has requested a nickname and that is “the huz”, so from here on, he is “the huz”.)  My doggy and kitty babies were like glue and SO glad mommy is home.  My friends waited patiently for me to sleep and rest before phone calling and reconnection. My life gathered very little dust while I was absent.

Re-entry is also a process.  Balancing the inner life with “normal” life becomes increasingly more difficult.  The pull of that life is strong.  A quiet, focused, peaceful and deeply connected life is what my Soul yearns for.  Yet, my path, and indeed the path of most of us leads us into a world where chaos, intensity and all manner of things vying for attention are willingly endured in pursuit of , yes by the temptation of LOVE, JOY, FUN, CONNECTION and HAPPINESS.

“HAPPY, HAPPY, JOY, JOY”…  now that is a great MANTRA… Daily life leads us to this, no matter what we encounter.  I do believe this.

Today my day includes the death of a friend’s 7 month old baby… not unexpected, yet very sad and the eminent passing of another friend’s elderly father.  A life unlived and a life well lived… faith, hope and love… these are the elements of our lives…and for both of these loved ones.  As they pass, I wonder if they are going through the ultimate reentry… back to the Oneness, back to Spirit, finally, Peace and Connection.  God Bless them both… I pray they are lifted on Angel’s wings… I pray for those they leave behind.

24/9/2009



REACH OUT TO SOMEONE ON THE OPPOSITE SIDE… YOU MIGHT JUST DISCOVER SOMETHING WONDERFUL!

REACH OUT TO SOMEONE ON THE OPPOSITE SIDE… YOU MIGHT JUST DISCOVER SOMETHING WONDERFUL!

11:11



Going to “h” in a handbasket…

Have you ever wondered about where old sayings really come from or, indeed what they really mean?

I was thinking today about what I might want to record for my blog.  Part of me wants to go “postal” on the political stuff that is going on… then I revert to self preservation.  Part of me wants to find some quirky, humorous subject to wax forth upon, but what do I do when I don’t feel quirky and humorous?  Part of me wants to talk about my deep spiritual realizations and then I begin to wonder if my realizations are really that deep, anyway.

So then, I had this thought about that old saying and it seemed pretty apropo.

Although I am not sure about it’s origins, I do have a thought about what it might mean today for me.  And it might just wrap up all of these disparate subjects that want discussion, today.  For me, I think that this saying refers to the idea of just handing over your will, your thought processes, your opinions, your good common sense, your power or whatever else you are handing over to someone else to control, manipulate and shape.  I think that this saying would pretty well sum up what is happening in our political process, the current lack of humor or quirkiness and the current direction of my spiritual inquiry, as well.

WHAT IF WE STOPPED LISTENING TO EVERY OTHER “EXPERT” ABOUT WHAT WE SHOULD WANT OR BELIEVE.  There is a deep spiritual process that involves getting quiet and just listening to what is inside your own heart… discovering what do you really believe?

When I listen to my friends on the “left” or on the “right”, I mostly want to ask, ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR EVER LOVIN’ MINDS?  Where have good common sense, the ability to think for yourselves, and most of all, compassion and the presumption of goodness in others gone?  Well, I will tell you… they have all been dumped in that HANDBASKET and it is well on its way to “h”!

Are we really so willing to believe the worst about those that think differently of us.  Are we really so willing to assume the worst, just because someone believes differently.  Are we really so willing to speak the worst, in order to prove a point?

If you look around you, I’ll bet that there is someone close to you who is on the opposite side of some argument… political, spiritual or just how best to manage daily life.  Bring the rhetoric home and ask yourself if you really believe what the “pundits” would have you believe about that person.  If you are “right” do you really believe that that loved one or close friend really wants to overthrow the country… If you are “left” do you really believe that your friend wants millions of people to die in the streets for want of good health care?  And when we get to spiritual questions it gets even more volitile!  LETS GET REAL, PEOPLE.  Listen to your hearts… “those” people are people that you know and love… the only solution to any of our differences is to put down the assinine rhetoric and reactivity and talk about our commonalities and find the places we agree.  While we may disagree on the how best to accomplish our goals and pursue our beliefs, I believe that we will discover just how many of us desire the same things… taking good care of our planet, helping those less fortunate than ourselves… remembering to be grateful for the blessings that we have today.

If we can do this, we might just turn that handbasket around and carry it right up to “H”.  And of course, that will return me to my usual quirky, humorous self… SO GET BUSY, PEOPLE!

(ok, confirmation from the Universe can be very strange, indeed… I just turned on the t.v. to find Kathy Griffin discussing how she is “going to “h” in a handbasket!  HA!  Thanks, Universe!)

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15/9/2009



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